I’m having a tough day today. I worry constantly about my son, his future and what will become of him. Sometimes it overwhelms me. We have a very small family and I worry that once we are not here, he will be on his own. I wake up in the middle of the night worrying about this.
I can go days and be ok, then I read something or see something, or hear a friend saying what their child is doing, and realise he will never do that. I have even distanced from friends and their “normal” children as its been so hard to watch.
I wish I could be ok with this autistic life we lead, but i struggle so much with it. My close friend asked me the other day if I had spoke to a therapist about it all, and to be honest that has never crossed my mind. You are given the diagnosis and basically left to navigate the journey on your own, but maybe its something I need to look at. If i told anyone what goes on in my head they would be shocked! But maybe its time to open up to someone and talk through my concerns and try to come to terms with my life.
Super Autism Mum 