Fear

I couldn’t sleep last night. I was lying thinking about my son being older and on his own. We have no other children and I have a horrible feeling of him being alone.

It was like a grief crept over me.

I heard a couple of days ago that a colleague of mine had died. She was only 10 years older than me, I think this must have been at the back of my mind last night.

You just don’t know what the future holds. My job is to prepare my son for the future. So far, things for him are going well. School has been brilliant for him. His teacher called him a signing superstar – his makaton is fantastic. He loves signing. He is progressing and his development, though very slow, is moving along in the right direction.

I woke up this morning thinking I really need to take care of myself to be there for as long as I can be for my son.